Today it’s august the 13th, it is raining, it is dark and it is cold. It has been raining as if there is no end,all the heavens are weeping at the same time and they are trying to drown this world into darkness. I wonder why.
My world, that had happiness, sunshine, rainbows and dreams that we dreamt of sitting for infinite hours in the lawns near the library. World that had hopes, that had promises, my happy place that I still remember.
What happened to all the promises, all the hopes…where did you go? Why did you leave me in this rain? Why dear why….as it is the 13th day of august, it is also the 13th day you have left all of us, left me in this rain, wet and cold, soul-less and memory less.
You broke your promises, see now I have no one to hold my hand, no one to walk me around, no one to remind me of my Alzheimer’s medicines, no one to take me back to my room. You promised you wouldn’t leave, with my elixir, my soul, my only chance to live but you left.
If only I remembered your face, I would have asked the heaven’s forgiveness in your name. I would have asked for your life back instead my mine, I would have asked back my elixir. I would have asked your name.
Sadly, I remember nothing of you. Only the fact, that there is a hole in my heart now, and that the gods were so jealous of my elixir, they took it away….
The only thing I remember is that today is the 13th day, 13th day of august, 13th day since I lost my elixir, 13th day that you are not here…..
Mio Amore ,
I am in love with you, from the first moment I saw you sitting in that glass cabin by the window with the little rays of sunshine bouncing off your eyes..
I was in love with you even more, when we went on our second date and you chose Paav Bhaji and masala soda over spaghetti and red wine.
I love the fruity smell of your hair, and I love it more when you let me play with your unkempt hair and and I end up caressing that little mole on your ear…..
I love the enthusiasm with which you explain to me the very intricate details of nail painting, something you know i would never understand. But god, do your eyes shine!
I love, how the colour brown got new definitions and how perfectly centred it is in the whites of your eyes….and I love, how big your eyes look with just a little hint of kohl.
I decided to follow you as my religion, the moment quantum physics became our 3 A.M. topic discussion .
I love your warm breaths on my chest, I love how you protect me from my emotional insecurities and how you are never angry if I ever forget our anniversary. Thank you for that.
Contrary to popular beliefs, you make me feel safer, in your arms, my face buried in your burgundy hairs…. Something which my masculinity and bank balance fails to.
You are the reason, I sleep at night and you are the reason I don’t….
There are infinite reasons, why I love you….but just one why I can’t.
Please come to reality
I will be waiting
Yours and forever yours
Your 20yr old future husband